Corner yourself and work uninterrupted with no more of zoning out!

This was the write-up I gave to two of my fellow college mates, with whom I had a group on Whatsapp being actively handled for more than two years, as an explanation for leaving the group. As was evident that I was going to be added back without blocking both of them, I purposely did this to make sure that they don't add me back while at the same time making them realize that I genuinely felt distant from the activities they were always looking for and in general the perception they held.

So basically, it was a confession type of thing that we barely used to have in our super-hyped short meetings. The message I sent as a big piece of deliberately constructed reply is written down below as same in 'First Person' narrative.

Here's a thing, I didn't want the things to unfold the way it has until now. However, many things are still continuing as per the plan. Just think about the situation, how you'd like to grumble about how miserable I am at not being that nice friend - not always able to keep cherished mood, taking things too seriously, never agreeing to buy in the idea of relationship with girls or even talking about them and objections like not following general orthodox rules of doing things. But the thing is, all these end results are not actually shortcomings for me. I had planned to do the same. With a few difficulties coming along the way, I've been quite successful and you have been too trying to sell on your ideas. Now that I understand your inclinations, I don't know why you're finding it so difficult to visualize my somewhat alien perception. You might think I've failed at achieving things that you desire, whereas what I desire is completely different. That's where belief system comes into play. It's just that my beliefs are contentious to your somewhat generalized held views. So without any further ado, let's get to the major enablers as to why we should not be 'usual friends' any longer.

Cultural clash (Culture): We are highly diversified. We use this diversity to part our ways. We have separate methods of doing almost everything. We speak a common language to communicate, but our accents aren't the same so we cannot speak it in the same way. I'm from Bihar and its accent is the most infamous taking into account its backwardness. So we cannot be culturally singular. I have experienced how a message conveyed in an unusual accent, no matter how important it is, has an extremely adverse effect on the receiving end. 

Financial strain (Money): The reason I would not like to trade terms with you is also that you are not funding my expenses. That comes from my parents until I cultivate my own. Sometimes, I would need to spend more than I could out of my pocket money, making it difficult to manage other kinds of stuff in my tight budget. In this cruel world, barely anything tangible comes without a price. And the attitude I'm going to adopt is about to bring a lot of tangible things to me. 

Academic capability (competition): I was just performing decently before we began to share academic nuances in the process and results at the end of each semester. First semester results is a proof of it. My competitiveness is stiffer when I'm not involved personally with the candidates in the competition. I guess just opposite the case might be with you. You were drawing enlightenment to score more draining me of my energy in the process. So if you want real competition, let me be my peak competent. 

Intellectual ability (contentment): Presently it might seem that you've all peace of mind in the world and the way for right intellects to apply at appropriate places. But oftentimes I very carefully weigh things before taking any decision and sometimes the vague habit of reasoning out is going to pay off at later stages of my life when you will still be searching for more answers to be satisfied with. Being stuck in psychological warfare for most of the times, I've learned quite a few related nuances that you would probably ever like to know in your lifetime. This is a reason why I've stopped being always a nice person trying to please every other people. 

Recreational sources (entertainment): It's again a part of our culture somewhat influenced by other culture. In recent times, there has been a considerable amount of cross-cultural consumption of recreational contents. It has been accounted for the fact that people will want to know about others so as to expand their reach. But no amount and quality of recreations give you the certificate that you're superior to a more or less relative community. Besides, the entertainment industry should be left to its own domain to compare and prioritize. 

Past experiences (lessons): I wish you could come across what I have been through. Even if you would like to, you cannot go back to those tender years of life wanting to suffer those horrible things, that'll be very dissimilar to comforts you had back then. Anyways, tough times teach a lot of self-help life lessons and you just seem to be less molded than I am. 

Attitude (freedom): This is a quality where you have nothing to teach me. You are just bound to follow the terms offered to you by your parents and the society at large. Without leaving many options for you except for disguised recreations like watching porn, talking to girls, media consumption of other cultures, meet like-minded people and form groups, spending a little bit of money as per your wish on modern technological and innovative needs. Now, you might think you're getting all of these easy pastime free of cost without realizing that you have been grappled in this infectious web, further putting you down in achieving what you could in the long run if you were free.